When life was free

I remember a time when I would sit with the movers and shakers. I remember a time when all I thought was calculating. Listen more, be engaged, respond to the right people; and now I think about not being alone. I didn't realize the power in you was freedom to be the best in me. Now I think about finding you, the calculating me has been supplanted by the searching me.

I made a mistake. We made a mistake. I don't know how to go back.