Not really back
I was going to say that I am in a much different place in my life right now but emotionally that isn't true. I, like the rest of the planet, used the blog world to vent a side of me that I could not share publicly. The side of me that was dominating my life and not in a good way. My life has changed and until recently I did not need to vent but that has all changed. The good news is the stress is no longer personal but work related. However my frustrations are only with myself and I can not point a finger to anyone else. I don't have the time or the desire to bore you with the details of my inadequacies.
Having said that my stress level is insane. I am struggling to cope. I am also struggling with "good enough" for the rest of the world and "good enough" for me. It is two vastly different things and I am not ready to throw in the towel. So my stress is self generated to a large extent, I could just do my job with low stress and not try to fix my corner of the world. Perhaps it is my youth and lack of experience with this position, but in the end I would be satisfied with learning and I hope to fix my corner of the world.