I wish there was a gum to quit you

I smoked for 16 years, and 8 years after I started I wanted to quit. I tried going cold turkey but that really did not work. A few years later and 10 pounds heavier I tried the patch. I made it until I took the patch off. A year later and another 10 pounds heavier I tried the drug Zyban. Which was too much drug for me, and I was still a smoker. A few months after that I tried the patch again, and did not make it a second after the nicotine was out of my system. A few months after that and a total of 30 pounds heavier I tried the throat lozenges. I was still a smoker and a fat one at that. Finally I tried the gum, and I quit. I succeed with the gum where I failed all the other attempts. I didn’t gain any weight, in fact I lost weight.

I really wanted to quit all those other times. I was surrounded by non-smokers. I was embarrassed that I smoked. I would hide that I smoked from my co-workers and friends. Only the people close to me knew I was a smoker but it took the gum to finally quit. And now I wish there was a gum to stop you.

I wish there was a gum for loneliness. I wish there was a gum that would stop me from thinking about you. I wish there was a gum to stop me from calling you, and a gum to not answer when you call. I wish there was a gum to not email you or reply to the ones you send me. I wish there was a gum to stop me from looking for your car. I wish there was a gum to stop me from caring about you. I wish there was a gum to take away the pain. I wish there was a gum to quit you.