Little Monster
I have been so busy at work that I don’t have time to blog. I know! It is truly amazing, how can anyone not have time to blog? I don’t even have time to read me favorite blogs. I love being busy at work. In fact the main reason I left my last position was that I was not busy enough. It is possible to be working on the cutting edge of science and still be bored.
Now I am so busy and I love it, but in the back of my mind is the little monster asking me why am I so busy? When I focus on the little monster I can’t help but think that perhaps my total involvement in work is my escape from reality. Whenever I have a free minute I start thinking about things I would rather not think about and I immediately ask my manager for more work, and I have to wonder why do I not want to think about them? Is it because I am afraid to change the bad things in my life? When it comes to my professional life I am super proactive, if something is not to my liking I change it immediately. Either by confronting the problem head on, and if that doesn’t work, changing me, which always works.
I can’t escape the feeling that I work so much so I don’t have to have a personal life. I don’t have time to deal with all the things in a personal life that I don’t have the courage to change. I think I am a workaholic and I don’t know if it is in the good way. I do love what I do, and I love the praise and recognition I receive at work and perhaps that is enough. Quiet little monster in the back of my brain!
Now I am so busy and I love it, but in the back of my mind is the little monster asking me why am I so busy? When I focus on the little monster I can’t help but think that perhaps my total involvement in work is my escape from reality. Whenever I have a free minute I start thinking about things I would rather not think about and I immediately ask my manager for more work, and I have to wonder why do I not want to think about them? Is it because I am afraid to change the bad things in my life? When it comes to my professional life I am super proactive, if something is not to my liking I change it immediately. Either by confronting the problem head on, and if that doesn’t work, changing me, which always works.
I can’t escape the feeling that I work so much so I don’t have to have a personal life. I don’t have time to deal with all the things in a personal life that I don’t have the courage to change. I think I am a workaholic and I don’t know if it is in the good way. I do love what I do, and I love the praise and recognition I receive at work and perhaps that is enough. Quiet little monster in the back of my brain!
posted by Spin_Doc1 at
7:00 PM
5 Comments:
You are doing something that makes you happy. If it turns out later that there was an underlying reason for that - well, at the time you did what made you happy. How can that be bad? I mean, as long as you aren't causing any irrepirable damage to yourself.
There's nothing wrong with doing what you want to do, even if it might not seem like it is for the "right" reasons. It's ok to want the temporary fix for a while (if that's indeed what your busy is).
Be reasonably safe, be happy. The rest will fall into place.
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ZooooM, at 12:38 AM
I think maybe finding a happy medium in all aspects of life is next to impossible. I know I am only good to concentrate on one thing at a time.
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i used to be me, at 10:59 AM
Zoom,
Thank you! I feel better now.
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Spin_Doc1, at 11:55 AM
Genius,
I actually do better when 8 million things are going on at once. Maybe I need 8 million partners??? Now there is an idea!
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Spin_Doc1, at 11:56 AM
What a great site
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