I am sick

I am sick and I feel so sorry for myself when I am sick. It is the only time in my life when I don't think I am strong enough to carry on. I want to be taken care off and phrases like "I want my mommy" make complete sense. Sickness reduces me to a whiney baby, and that is where I am right now. I truly want to be taken care of when I am sick, like a small helpless child because that is how I feel in the face of sickness.

I am such a bad sick person that I usually try to ignore it and hope it will go away, just like all the other problems in my life. Unfortunately not all colds/flues will be ignored; in fact I have had pneumonia twice trying to ignore my own sickness. Right now I am trying to ignore my sickness and really wishing I had someone in my life to take care of me. Someone who would fix me soup and run to the store when I run out of Nyquil, and someone who would make sure I was as comfortable as possible in my misery.

Oh that reminds me of this time when I was so sick and being the world’s biggest baby. It was during my very obnoxious teenage years and in the middle of night during a massive snow storm and I felt so sorry for myself. I was convinced the only thing that would make me better was Nyquil but we did not have any in the house, my grandparents in their robes and slippers went out into the storm in the middle of the night and bought me Nyquil. They really were the best people in the world and I was extremely lucky to have someone love me that much for a fraction of my life. I really miss them, especially when I need them the most.