Now is the time

Conflicting wants and desires

Now is the time to realize that there is conflicting wants and desires. Now is the time I realize that I can't have it all. I want to be the woman that has the diamond tennis braclet. The woman that is adorned, the woman that outshines everyone. Oh wait, that isn't reality. Do I want to buy my own castle in the sky or do I want someone to sweep me up on their white horse and take me there?

When life was free

I remember a time when I would sit with the movers and shakers. I remember a time when all I thought was calculating. Listen more, be engaged, respond to the right people; and now I think about not being alone. I didn't realize the power in you was freedom to be the best in me. Now I think about finding you, the calculating me has been supplanted by the searching me.

I made a mistake. We made a mistake. I don't know how to go back.