For 18 years and older boys only

Boys are stupid
Throw rocks at them

Apology

An apology without a solution is meaningless

I found some comfort

I am once again living in a hotel room which seems to be my life recently; I still have a home I just don’t visit it very often. Yesterday after my shower I cleaned my earrings and left them on the bathroom counter. I continued to get ready for the day and after I dressed I went to put on my earrings and one of my diamonds was missing. I searched everywhere, twice; thought through all the possible places it could have fallen and then searched another 4 times. I did not find it. I was so upset and I started crying; alone in my hotel room crying because I couldn’t find my earring. I called the Love of my Life who gave me the earrings for our first Christmas together and it made me feel even worse. I got angry with him because I was calling for comfort and did not receive it. I then sent a text message to Fozzie and the Kid which said “I am in tears! I just lost my diamond earring. I am so upset!”

The Kid responded in a much similar way to the Love of my Life accusing me of not searching hard enough for it and being negligent in keeping track of my valuables. Boy was that not what I wanted to hear, because how could I be so stupid was running in stereo in my head at the moment. I also did not know where to search; all my searches had been fruitless.

Fozzie responded with “I am so sorry. It is just a material object and can be replaced unless it has sentimental value. Try not to worry about it too much. We’ll get you another one when you return.” A few hours later he sent “How are you doing honey?” It was exactly want I needed, comfort. I was able to think clearly after someone gave me some sympathy and realized the earrings are insured and I will replace them when I return home.

Some words to go with my feelings

I can’t stand to watch an animal suffer but human suffering doesn’t bother me as much. Many people in my life are puzzled by this extreme sympathy to animals and a seemingly lack of empathy for humans. I have never been able to articulate why I feel so, but something came to me today. Misery is part of the human condition, whether self inflicted or not it is there. Pain and suffering is something every human deals with on many different levels and for the most part we survive and move on. Humans are wired to deal with pain and suffering and move on. Animals do not have to cognitive reasoning to rationalize pain and suffering, to learn from it and pull the positive from it. They learn pain. They learn suffering and there is nothing in their brains that allow them to cope constructively from it.